Update #8: Homeward Bound & Lab Results!
I write from my hospital bed on the last day of my stay here, at Scripps Green. Tears of joy are rolling down my face as I am given the official news of my lab results. Results came back as “T2”, which simply means… I was only Stage 1; the lymph nodes were clear; and no need for chemo or radiation!
To God be the glory!
As most of you know, I had asked for prayer in 3 major areas:
1. No hysterectomy (that prayer was answered before my surgery).
2. No colostomy bag (that prayer was answered during my surgery).
3. And lastly, No cancer in my lymph nodes. (Answered today!)
I must say.. I wasn’t sure how God would answer these prayers, but I trusted Him to get me through it, regardless of the outcome.
When my Mother passed away in May, some people expressed disappointment in God. Maybe because of the outcome and she had so much faith that she would be physically healed. Personally, I have learned a great lesson in faith through this cancer battle and it is this:
Real faith never puts belief in an outcome. Real faith puts belief in Christ Jesus, who controls the outcome.
Over and over, in scripture, God promises to be with us; that He will never leave or forsake us; to trust that whatever He is doing in our lives is for our good and His glory.
He promises to get us through the hard times; not avoid them;
through the valley of the shadow of death, and not be afraid;
through the waters, He will be with you;
through the rivers, and not be overtaken;.
through the fire, and not be burned;
My faith used to be a mix of believing in an outcome, as well as, believing in HIM who is able. But, I would find myself disappointed when God didn’t answer the prayers I prayed.
For the first time in my life, right before my diagnosis, I surrendered my will to Him. I surrendered what I wanted for my life to whatever He had for my life.
And then came…
The test of my faith: my cancer diagnosis.
So with reckless abandonment, I surrendered all of me; whatever the outcome; I chose to have a different kind of faith. I chose to put my belief in HIM, not the outcome.
And then came…
Peace that passes ALL understanding; Joy unspeakable; And rest.
I have found that in order to fully know that God really can do exceedingly more than I could ever hope or imagine, I had to understand just how deep His love is for me. And in order to know the great depths of His love, I had to be rooted and grounded in HIM! (Ephesians 3:17-20)
The outcome no longer matters as much as the relationship I have with Christ.
I will spend the next 6 weeks at home recovering and I only need to check back with my Doctor every 6 months! Thank you for your love and prayers.
I am forever grateful for this experience.
I am forever grateful for all of you, family and friends, for the love you’ve extended to me through your support.
I am forever grateful for my amazing husband, my strong supportive daughters, my encouraging sisters, my loving Dad and my loyal family who continues to stand by me.
I am forever grateful to my Abba Daddy, who loves me and calls me his own.